My husband after 50 years of marriage

hand because once I started crying, I was afraid I wouldn’t stop.

Shame crossed his face.

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For five years, I learned how to stretch grocery money, fix a running toilet with a video on my phone, and smile when people at church asked if I was “adjusting.”

Adjusting sounded so polite.

My children called often.

Adele always listened too closely.

“Mama, you sound tired.”

“I’m seventy-four,” I told her. “Tired comes with the receipt.”

Jeremiah tried and failed.

My children called often.

“Need me this weekend?”

“For what?”

“Nothing. Just