look at me.
“The one who knew Dad.”
Everything around me seemed to tilt.
Because Ethan’s father, Ryan, had been dead for three years.
Ryan died when Ethan was six.
It happened quickly.
He became sick in the spring.
By the end of summer, he was gone.
Ethan understood death in the fragmented way six-year-olds do.
He understood his father was gone.
Then, every few months as he grew older, he understood it again in a different way.
For three years, I had been the person keeping Ryan alive for
